I’ve been sick for the past few days so I’m now resting in my bed. I’m thinking, hey, why don’t I write a post on my blog? This is actually something that I’ve been wanting to share with everyone for quite some time. It’s something that’s really personal for me.
I remember when I was in 7th grade, my dad talked about an introvert and an extrovert and how they’re both different. He said that my sister is an extrovert while I am an introvert. I refused and told my dad that I’m not an introvert. An extrovert seems more fun. Outgoing. Sociable. Lots of friends. But who am I kidding? I have always been a quiet kid. Never talk much. Keeping things to myself. Prefer solitude over crowded place. Everything that I am perfectly describes an introvert.
As I get older, I realized that not only I’m an introvert, I also have social anxiety issue. I don’t talk much because I’m afraid that other people will judge me and think that I’m weird. I don’t socialize because I think that no one is interested in me enough to be friends with me. I over think things.
I don’t know how many times people thinking that I’m a stuck-up bitch because I don’t seem approachable (yes, yes, I have resting bitch face and I don’t think I can change that unless I have plastic surgery). How many times people (even my own family) forcing me to talk more with other people because it’s rude not to. It’s not that I don’t want to talk to people but I really don’t know what to talk about! My mind goes completely blank and when I do think of something, I said to myself that it sounds ridiculous so I stay silent. It happens all the time, it’s tiring.
It’s hard being an introvert and it’s even harder for me because of my social anxiety issue. The general public and the media are glorifying extrovert. You need to be bold! Be a people-person! Being quiet? No. There’s gotta be something wrong with you.
I wish people would let us be our introvert self. I found a bunch of great articles (1, 2, 3) about introvert so you would know more. Hopefully, you’ll get something out of reading those and won’t misunderstand us, the introvert, any longer. And to my introvert friends, here’s a comic that we can all relate to!